Back at high school,
I resented about how hard it was to find someone who really know me
someone who really share much common interest with me
Coz we all were like a pro-form
We hadn't get to choose what to major, which career to focus on back then
So, for ppl like me who was like having an artist soul stucked in a science class, life could be hard
Moving to uni,
I was very excited at first to have a bunch of coursemates and friends who share the same major and certain interest
Especially it's psychology I'm majoring in, so we can pretty much relate the theories and sometimes some psychological disorder to our own life, be them bullshit or not
And I thought yeah, I can finally find some friends that we can share almost every topic
Turn out I was quite wrong
Just because of having a same major, ppl are being quite reserved
Some even seems to be trying to exploit one another
Don't get me wrong, I think these actually apply to almost every major but not just Psych
Yeah, perhaps it has sth to do with evolutionary psych
but how can we be sure is that the actual explanation or just an excuse for ppl's selfish mindset and behavior?
From times to times I feel most comfortable being alone rather than in a crowd
It was not that my friends aren't good
In fact they are great
Just that I realize in the world nowadays, friends and company may not be (and to an extent shouldn't be) the primary source of happiness and joy
Happiness should be come from innerself mate
so one can feel happy no matter how worse would the situation and the environment change into
Even though the world seems like welcoming different voices and opinions
there are in fact not many ppl ready to listen, ready to absorb all that voices
too much output
But then it's very likely my future job would require me to be a people person
so still have to train myself to meet that requirement
Can't follow the flow of this post eh?
Nvm, neither do I =)
