2012年2月28日星期二

28/2/2012 rainy, then sunny Baillieu Library

Today when walking around the campus, had a strong doesn’t-seem-to-be-right-feeling…

I was like suddenly have no idea why am I here…

I should be sitting at AE1 and giggle over Ms. Winnee’s lecture

Should be wandering around HELP mainblock parking looking for a parking slot

Should be do my best to score full marks for PSY201 quizzes

Should be ordering Indomee goreng doucble and Iced Nescafe at Wisma HP food court

Should be trying to get into the shuttle bus travelling back to mainblock

Should be talking nonsense when discussing assignment details with friends…

The campus is nice over here in Melbourne

They got canteens, café, gardens, towers, high-speed wifi, comfortable lecture halls, bookshop…

But I don’t think I am belonged to here.

Maybe I’m just not suitable for studying overseas,

Though everyone else is looking forward for that opportunity throughout their life.

For my soul is still with the university which doesn’t grant a decent campus life…

2012年2月26日星期日

Melbourne

Reached Melbourne d...
But really tired...
Thought I could finally sleep during the flight after drinking a bottle of Jack Daniel's Whiskey and Cola (Couldn't find it in M'sia)...
Even discussed about alcoholic drinks with the 2 passengers who were sitting next to me...haha
Fear floods in me again...
For the past few days I kept asking myself: Did I really made the right decision?
Becoming more frustrated now
Tomorrow would be the date of commencement of my course, but I haven't enrol into any subject yet...
Went to IKEA right after sending my luggage to the apartment...
Then ady had conflict with my sis
I know I should not compare the price of goods over here to those in M'sia
But I believe one could make his or her best effort to make a nice and cozy home w/o spending much more than required...
Looks like it will take me quite long to get used with the lifestyle practiced with the others under the same roof...
On the way back, I kept falling into microsleep in the tram that I actually hit my head to the steel handle accidentally.
Today didn't quite managed to catch most of the words when listening to native Australians... But I know I shouldn't be defeated by this as what I did back in the UK...If I cease my overseas study again, this would be my end...So, stay strong!
I feel sorry for my friends at HELP. At the very beginning of last year, I thought I can work on my goal in a very determined way. I thought studying at HELP was no doubt just a channel for me to enter oversea university. But now I feel sorry for having such thinking before...If I were to give one more chance, I guess I would choose to stay at HELP and work with my awesome friends...But life's no turning back, so I shouldn't spend much time on regretting my decision.
So, may god bless me!

2012年2月20日星期一

It's just complicated

作为人类其中一个特点就是
感情更丰富
intensity of feeling and emotion 的起伏是如此的迷人
不知道那是不是因为至少人类在哭的时候深深感受到
自己是悲伤的,痛苦的
而在笑的时候 也明白那意味着自己的幸福和快乐在绽放着
(动物对自己的feeling和emotion有没有认知这件事我心情好时会去ebsco挖一挖资料)
很遗憾
丰富的感情
可以将人与人之间的距离拉得更近
亦可以把人推得更远
也许是因为
emotion和cognitive function都归同个大脑管
而我们就在它们互不妥协时
当了可悲的牺牲品
伤了自己在意的人
也伤了自己
而我们终究也只能
哭笑不得地静待着叹息声的轮迴
沉溺在一片不是自己的思想当中

2012年2月16日星期四

B&B

Okay, people around me have been criticizing my obsession about Disney cartoon recently.
Just because I kept yelling wanting to go to watch Beauty and the Beast 3D.
Well, there's something I need to clarify here.
The very first one: No, I'm actually not a big fan of Disney's series, actually prefer Looney Tunes =P
And I don't understand why one must have been falling for the romance element in the Disney's series if he or she like watching them.
In fact, there are much more things to be appreciated in Disney's series (here refers to the Old Disney's series).
Graphics!!!!!!!
Give me a hundred more years I also can't draw the Waterfall of Pocahontas, the Circle of Pride in The Lion King, The Rose in Beauty & the Beast identically with the originals.
Some may argue that the Disney cartoons nowadays look more real. But if you compared Part 2 & 3 of The Lion King to Part 1, you'll get what I mean, hopefully.
Storyline!
Compared to those lame jokes stuffed reluctantly in the recent Disney's Productions, old Disney's series apply jokes that generally audiences from any age could understand. Less sarcasm, less stupid jokes.
And they do bring me back to some of my memories, or should say they are testing my memories. Do I remember the particular scene...bla bla bla
Lastly, I am curious about the presentation of those classics in 3D...The 3D version of The Lion king was somehow dissapointing. But not for Beauty & The Beast!
Today went to Kepong MBO, actually arrived there late. When I reached there, the girl at ticketing counter called the film box operator to see if he agree to show the film or not. And then YAY, I alone get to enjoy the whole film box for the movie. But don't know why the girl still ask me to choose a preferred seat ==' I want to do planking inside also can lar XD Don't know it should be considered as I was like a boss or forever alone. Maybe combo lor...Like a boss who is forever alone!
After the film was finished showing, I still stick on the chair though the staff had already opened the exit door and ready to collect my 3D glasses. Coz the film credits are accompanied with some 3D graphics mar, and the ending song is nice, so I sat until the song was half-played, haha.

2012年2月13日星期一

Regression?

Sometimes I am thinking...
How I wish I could go back to my past life
go back to the grassland
the evergreen grassland
How I wish I am just merely lost in space
and will be able to get back to the place I really belong to someday
It did not always lead to a peaceful life on that grassland
as well as I do understand that I do not belong to any land of heaven
But at least it was not that complicated
not that taxing
not that vague
The sky was always blue
The breeze was always breeze
And the river continues to flow...
Just saying...

2012年2月11日星期六

LMS' quote #1

It's no big deal to be lost.
It only means that you get to travel on more roads.











(hope I myself will be convinced by what I have said someday...)