So I just watched "Schindler's List"
TBF I don't recommend watching it at nights
although presented in b&w
the holocaust scene may still potentially haunt yr mind
While psych students might have been upsetting with the dehumanising nature of human
Thank god thr's this film reminding you "Nope, thr's always an exception"
The film is about Oskar Schindler and his wife, who saved about 1100- 1200 Jews from the holocaust.
在这之前我一直觉得自己是个很不自由的人
我活在一个完全没人懂我的家庭里
周围的人不明白我所信奉的，所坚持的
我至今还没办法找到一个和我心与心很贴近的人
就像一只52赫兹的鲸鱼
就在这两周我都在告诉自己如果现在身在电影片场，画室，乃至戏剧舞台上
那该多好
至少那是我最能专注的地方
我每天都在观察人与人之间的互动
可是自己在人际沟通上却越来越被动了
其实南京大屠杀，第二次世界大战等等并非距离现在很久远的事
我们的人身自由是比那个年代要好很多
更别说我们不是身在中东，非洲或南韩
尚算安全
可是安全感似乎不曾增加
以前的人literally从踏出家门那一刻就不晓得能不能平安回家
现代常人呢？
依旧对现况的自由不满
Wifi不过快，功课压力，还没当成人却很想做成人做的事...
你真的认为那两种不自由可以相提并论吗？
是的，人类就是没有满足的一天
We crave and we strive for freedom at the expense of the others
我想，唯有达到“无状态”，没有欲望，没有自不自由的，一切才会静止在那时空里
没有一念一想
在那之前，请善待我们周遭的人吧
我们结伴来到这世界感受能感受的
却反过头被感受牵绊了
彼此折磨着对方
两败俱伤
即使没法瞬间放下仇恨
至少不要去刻意伤害
静观自己拥有的自由
并且善用自由
大概会比较快乐吧
2013年9月27日星期五
2013年9月15日星期日
黄梅调/Do not attempt to change my life or change to suit my life/R U OK ? Day
Should be writing social psych lab report now
But thr's too much thoughts in my brain
Of which more than half of them hv nth to do with the report
So I guess it's better to hv some focused reflection b4 moving on to the writing
Last night I was procrastinating too
But instead of doing sth meaningless
I was stone thr, listening to some 黄梅调
If you'd followed some Shaw Brother's films in the past
You'd know what's a 黄梅调
But prolly not even many of the people of my age did know about it
Everytime I listened to some beautiful pieces of 黄梅调
Especially those of 红楼梦，天仙配，孟姜女
I'd shed some tears
YES, you don't have to inform me about your judgment
I do know how stupid it sounded
But then again, I felt a very subtle connection btwn 黄梅调 and me
It's like I had actually heard it long before this life
Some funny feeling suggests that I had been living in an era of 黄梅调, if you like
Again, it's prolly just some self-constructed dejavu but yeah
Nth would weaken the uniques sense of connection
Today I couldn't get a person out of mind for the entire day
It was a person that used to be my great company
The person listened to my sorrow, built courage in me via some unique way
While I was trying my best to make the person happy whenever I could
Life without the person was really lonely
And I thought there might be a chance we were able to lead to a wonderful ending
But then the person did sth that I considered severely against my philosophy of life
I understand from the bottom of my heart the person's attempt to change my lifestyle was because the person would like to increase the common topic in between us
I understand that the person might be feeling lonely as well as I did
But then again I have been devoting so much of my life to prove my value, my principle...
Changing my lifestyle was like denying my effort, denying my identity, my sense of self
I found it simply unbearable and rather hurting, very hurting
I'm not looking for someone who would ask me to not to listen to 黄梅调 anymore, nor someone who listen to 黄梅调 in order to earn my attention/ liking...
I'll be glad to know someone who enjoy his/her life much and cherish ppl who enjoy their own life :)
Anyway, I wish that the person would find someone that could really bring happiness into the person's life w/o any intentious changes be made
Bear with me for keep using 'the person' instead of some simple pronouns
Thr's a reason that I couldn't admit atm
Lastly,on this year's R U OK? Day
I did not make it to greet ppl around me much
But I did thanked the janitor at Richard Barry building's toilet and thanked the Thai student who sold Pad Thai at the Festival of Nations (in Thai)
Haha, not bad I guess
But I'm committed to do better in the future
Ok, I'm going back to my assignment.
Bye bye!
But thr's too much thoughts in my brain
Of which more than half of them hv nth to do with the report
So I guess it's better to hv some focused reflection b4 moving on to the writing
Last night I was procrastinating too
But instead of doing sth meaningless
I was stone thr, listening to some 黄梅调
If you'd followed some Shaw Brother's films in the past
You'd know what's a 黄梅调
But prolly not even many of the people of my age did know about it
Everytime I listened to some beautiful pieces of 黄梅调
Especially those of 红楼梦，天仙配，孟姜女
I'd shed some tears
YES, you don't have to inform me about your judgment
I do know how stupid it sounded
But then again, I felt a very subtle connection btwn 黄梅调 and me
It's like I had actually heard it long before this life
Some funny feeling suggests that I had been living in an era of 黄梅调, if you like
Again, it's prolly just some self-constructed dejavu but yeah
Nth would weaken the uniques sense of connection
Today I couldn't get a person out of mind for the entire day
It was a person that used to be my great company
The person listened to my sorrow, built courage in me via some unique way
While I was trying my best to make the person happy whenever I could
Life without the person was really lonely
And I thought there might be a chance we were able to lead to a wonderful ending
But then the person did sth that I considered severely against my philosophy of life
I understand from the bottom of my heart the person's attempt to change my lifestyle was because the person would like to increase the common topic in between us
I understand that the person might be feeling lonely as well as I did
But then again I have been devoting so much of my life to prove my value, my principle...
Changing my lifestyle was like denying my effort, denying my identity, my sense of self
I found it simply unbearable and rather hurting, very hurting
I'm not looking for someone who would ask me to not to listen to 黄梅调 anymore, nor someone who listen to 黄梅调 in order to earn my attention/ liking...
I'll be glad to know someone who enjoy his/her life much and cherish ppl who enjoy their own life :)
Anyway, I wish that the person would find someone that could really bring happiness into the person's life w/o any intentious changes be made
Bear with me for keep using 'the person' instead of some simple pronouns
Thr's a reason that I couldn't admit atm
Lastly,on this year's R U OK? Day
I did not make it to greet ppl around me much
But I did thanked the janitor at Richard Barry building's toilet and thanked the Thai student who sold Pad Thai at the Festival of Nations (in Thai)
Haha, not bad I guess
But I'm committed to do better in the future
Ok, I'm going back to my assignment.
Bye bye!
2013年9月2日星期一
*Bup Bup Bup Buup Bup*
前天吃完brunch后在餐厅外遇到一个小女孩
她在餐厅外的小巷吹着泡泡
她邀请我和我妹陪她一起吹泡泡
看谁吹的泡泡最大 看谁吹的泡泡飘得最远
我们玩得很开心
女孩告诉我们她每天都在那个小巷
也告诉我们她没和妈妈一起住 （我们推测她双亲离婚了）
她只有5岁
爸爸应该是在餐厅打工
没有人看着她 没有人陪她玩
临别时她好不舍得我们
甚至想跟我们回家
我们只好答应她下星期再去找她
临别前大家都互相取了nickname
bubble queen, bubble fish, bubble princess, bubble prince...
哈哈哈
这小朋友很有意思
下星期一定守诺言再去找她 ;)
她在餐厅外的小巷吹着泡泡
她邀请我和我妹陪她一起吹泡泡
看谁吹的泡泡最大 看谁吹的泡泡飘得最远
我们玩得很开心
女孩告诉我们她每天都在那个小巷
也告诉我们她没和妈妈一起住 （我们推测她双亲离婚了）
她只有5岁
爸爸应该是在餐厅打工
没有人看着她 没有人陪她玩
临别时她好不舍得我们
甚至想跟我们回家
我们只好答应她下星期再去找她
临别前大家都互相取了nickname
bubble queen, bubble fish, bubble princess, bubble prince...
哈哈哈
这小朋友很有意思
下星期一定守诺言再去找她 ;)
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